OBX!!

LIFE OVERLOAD

Please excuse me for a moment....

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Thank you.

You know when cars overheat? You're driving along, you hear some put-putting, and pull over to the side of the road where the car conveniently decides to crap out? Frustrated, you get out of the car on a 90 degree, sun blazing day, pop the hood, and all of this smoke and steam comes pouring out into your already hot face? My head/brain/life are that car right now. I am experiencing a condition that I am dubbing "life overload".

Let me explain. I am in love with post-its. When I need little reminders, I jot them down on post-its and tape them to things like my cell phone, wallet, or desk (places I know I won't overlook). Then, as I do each task, I just roll that sucker up and throw it away. So awesome, these post-its. However, in the last few weeks/days, my desk has become covered with post-its and I have resorted to the high school days of writing things on my hand since I have no room left for post-its. Some things to do include some of the following:

• Homework -- F. I have no time for it/desire to do it.
• Make photo prints for my ever expanding photography business - which is another thing to write about....oof.
• Buy frames
• Matte, frame, take to Funky Beehive and The Hill
• Meeting to form the Protek Gear LLC
• Sailing for three days this weekend when I should be doing any of the above
• Get work at real job done...F. See prior blogs to get my stance on that.
• Finish unpacking my room from my move last weekend
• And more that are on other post-its at home, purse, car.
• Keep in mind that all of these, especially the photography things, take a LOT of time to do and usually cost a pretty penny.

Things that are stressing me out to the max:

• Lack of spare time/energy/focus to do any of the above things
• Calendar filled up for entire summer, minus 4 weekends
• Above includes a lot of travelling
• Lack of resources, aka, MONEY.
• I think I am starting to have an anxiety attack right now thinking of these things, so I am going to stop with this list (there is a lot more)

So, to begin Life Overload therapy, instead of doing ANYTHING that I needed to do last night, I decided to make use of the massive jacuzzi tub in my new house (I moved last week). There is a skylight right over the tub, so I had a nice hot, bubbly soak while the rain fell on the skylight..it was very relaxing. Then I took a hot shower. Then I lit some candles, put on a jazz radio station on iTunes, and got in bed at 9pm to fall asleep to the rain. At the time, it was well worth it and I really needed some relaxation. This morning however, it doesn't seem that worth it because I'm back to where I started - freaking out about everything I have to do.

I need about one week to get my life in order and get shit figured out. My head hurts. Peace.